I know I haven't been around (at all) but watching all six seasons of SPN has taken up what very little time I have in between school and work and clinicals and sleeping. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I DO READ ENTRIES, EVEN IF I DON'T COMMENT ALL THE TIME. Will get better about this maybe I swear.

In the meantime I think I've finally found my perfect spn otp.



sassy_otp HOME AT LAST!!

/WEEPS TEARS OF JOY AND SPARKLES

Yeah, it finally sucked me in.

HEY, GUYS. I'VE BEEN SO BUSY FURIOUSLY FAPPING DROOLING MYSELF INTO CATATONIA OVER ALL THE CHRIS PINE AND TOM HARDY PICTURES AS OF LATE I HAVE BEEN NEGLECTING YOU AND I APOLOGIZE. I know you've been just dying to check in on me and find out how I'm coping with my dull, dull life.

UH I... I GOT A JOB AT BORDERS, I'M MOVING ON FROM OBSTETRICS CLINICALS TO PSYCH CLINICALS AND I GET TO WORK WITH MENTALLY UNSTABLE FOLK FOR 8 WEEKS. :) MY PEOPLE! ALSO I HAVE GOTTEN BACK INTO ROLEPLAYING WHICH IS GREAT I FINALLY HAVE A CREATIVE OUTLET AGAIN AND THERE'S HARDLY ANY PRESSURE SO I'M ENJOYING IT THUS FAR. I'VE GOTTEN INTO A NEW SHOW (BOARDWALK EMPIRE), CONTINUE TO LOVE JOE JONAS, AND CONTINUE TO SUCK AT BEING A DIABETIC. Cookie dough is my ultimate weakness and taking supplemental insulin is making me crazy hungry for sweet things (o sweet irony) and gain weight as I am no longer peeing out all the sugar and carbs but retaining them. I actually *need* to exercise to keep from getting large and in charge which is a bummer as I never really had to but I don't think it'll be too bad. We have an exercise bike. I need an aerobic workout DESPERATELY because my heart is pathetically weak, my heart rate has always been on the high end to occasionally tachycardic (no, tachycardic is not a spelling error stfu squiggly red line) and I've been having palpitations frequently--

...And that is more than you wanted to know. MOVING ON.

WHO IS PUMPED ABOUT UNSTOPPABLE? MIDNIGHT PREMIERE BABY I'M THERE.

Have a gif.

Just some stuff I've fallen in love with and thought you guys should take a peek at. Sharing is caring.


princehamlette's mirror universe artwork/designs. Here. Hnnrghh. Just fucking beautiful I just.. damn. I CRAVE MOAR.

jane_potter's AU Riot-verse series. "In a universe where first contact with Earth in the throes of the Eugenics War repulsed Vulcan too much for them to consider an alliance, the Terran-Orion Union is the terror of the black, their Starfleet branch maintaining relations with a facade of neutrality while Syndicate ships raid and kidnap slaves. Smaller worlds hide in the so-called Free Space behind Vulcan's blockade, but 250 years isolated from any kind of emotional influence has left Vulcan law stagnant and cold to the plight of other peoples. Doing what's right is neither legal or logical. Jim Kirk and S'chn T'gai Spock are both pretty okay with that." Here. Double hnnrrgh. Mostly pg-13 rating which is rare (lol) for me but jeeeesus. This is some amazing writing and character insight.

...So, I seriously need to reconnect with people. I miss you guys. All of you.

Things recently have been... hectic, to say the least, but that's no excuse for isolating myself completely from my friends. It's only making me more miserable and emo.

HOW ARE YOU? Talk to me.

Reaching a new low:



Watching a terrible movie on mute just to ogle. I should be ashamed.

Conversely, unf.





There is no shame left in me.

threesteps is now a star trek and pinto-crazed fangirl.








I COULD CRY.

First off, thank you so much loves for the amazing comments in my mini-break down entry from last week. I actually cried when I read all of them I was so touched by your overwhelming support. Now basically I feel like a gigantic pussy for that dramatic reaction but a lot has happened to improve my opinion of the prognosis since then.

I saw an endocrinologist. He was really positive, really nice, and fuck he told me I could eat the shittiest shit occasionally so all is not lost. He gave me a sample menu of the kind of stuff I could have and it wasn't all NONFAT NO SUGAR dreck. There were waffles. And pancakes. And hot dogs. And baked beans I was excited the most about that idk why I'm a weirdo obsessed with Bush (see what I did there.) He told me that because I'm young and otherwise healthy, I get some leeway with food and if I suddenly feel like having pizza, I should have pizza. But I have to adjust my insulin dose and yeah shouldn't make it a regular thing. It's a learning experience. I need to observe how certain foods effect my sugar levels, and how much insulin I need to keep them low. Challenging, but I can do it.

My mom has also been super amazing about all of this I think I'd still be wallowing in bed if it wasn't for her. She tossed out all of our junk, took me shopping for health food, and vowed to stick to the same diet I was restricted to. She, too, was quite thrilled at the sight of that menu. Glucerna cereal tastes like shit, dudes. Trust me. I couldn't even swallow one bite of it without gagging. Neither could my mom. Cheerios seems like Count Chocula in comparison and I'm happy.

Insulin isn't too terrible, either. The needle doesn't hurt (usually) going in, so it's not a mundo inconvenience to inject four times a day. Testing probably hurts more, since I have to do it on my fingers and that's way more sensitive than my abdomen with its beautiful cushioning layer of blubber. I've already adjusted, though, to testing and doing insulin around mealtimes it doesn't feel quite so debilitating anymore. The only thing that worries me still is the long term risks of having diabetes but it's better not to think about it or I'll get angsty again.

I'M LIVING IN THE NOW. And I love all of you. Couldn't ask for better people to help me deal with all of this. Or at least offer a friendly e-shoulder to cry on. Thank you. ♥

Oh, God. I've finally crossed the line. I've become that which I hate.


It's not my fault, though. Really. I mean, he's only the world's most perfect video game character. Why aren't men like this in real life. Lawd.

Alistair I love your sexy pixels. :(